I lost my motivation to succeed when I started reading romance novels as a teenager. They gave me what I wanted from life - romance, a rich life, happiness.
This is what I exactly what I wanted from life:
- Love (including romance)
- A rich life (to be very rich both money-wise and personally)
- To be independant (to be able to go anywhere whenever I want to)
- To be great at something
These are the things I wanted in my life and the romance novels offered me these in abundance. I was able to create a symbiotic relationship with the characters in the books and enjoy the rich life, the grand affairs, the overarching emotions and the very happy endings.
I lost my marbles all those years ago. Now I have found them again. I found brief pleasure in my escapist, unreal world with the help of those romance novels. Now I will find success in the real world!
Friday, July 29, 2011
Expecting a bundle of joy
Earlier this year I was expecting a bundle of joy. The baby was going to be our first. My husband and I had decided to build a solid relationship and buy a house before starting our family and we were looking forward to having our first baby!
You know, when they call a baby a "bundle of joy" you shrug, say ok and then move on. But when you're expecting your baby the term "bundle of joy" becomes real for you. You experience the utter joy that this little being brings to you even though the baby can't speak and you cannot see the baby.
It was weird, I knew almost immediately that I was pregnant. Not from the word go, you know, but after the first few days - I knew. I knew! I couldn't believe it. My stomach started to ache - not in the upset tummy type of way - but a "my tummy's preparing for something or should I say someone" kind of way.I had never had tummy aches before and for the next three weeks, this special type of tummy ache occurred EVERY DAY!
So I gave it a bit of time and then went and bought 3 pregnancy tests. Waiting in anticipation I was smiling with glee. When the tests showed that I was indeed pregnant I gave a whoop of joy and danced around. I was happy. You know that kind of happiness that you search for when your life turns inside out? Well that was the kind of happiness I found that day. My baby made my dreams come true.
That night I congratulated Jake on becoming a dad. After looking gobsmacked for a while he said that he had suspected it - note that he still had a dazed look about him when he made that grand statement :)
All was well. I had found my happily ever after.
You know, when they call a baby a "bundle of joy" you shrug, say ok and then move on. But when you're expecting your baby the term "bundle of joy" becomes real for you. You experience the utter joy that this little being brings to you even though the baby can't speak and you cannot see the baby.
It was weird, I knew almost immediately that I was pregnant. Not from the word go, you know, but after the first few days - I knew. I knew! I couldn't believe it. My stomach started to ache - not in the upset tummy type of way - but a "my tummy's preparing for something or should I say someone" kind of way.I had never had tummy aches before and for the next three weeks, this special type of tummy ache occurred EVERY DAY!
So I gave it a bit of time and then went and bought 3 pregnancy tests. Waiting in anticipation I was smiling with glee. When the tests showed that I was indeed pregnant I gave a whoop of joy and danced around. I was happy. You know that kind of happiness that you search for when your life turns inside out? Well that was the kind of happiness I found that day. My baby made my dreams come true.
That night I congratulated Jake on becoming a dad. After looking gobsmacked for a while he said that he had suspected it - note that he still had a dazed look about him when he made that grand statement :)
All was well. I had found my happily ever after.
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